Broken-little-girl

Hush now child don't you cry Momma's gonna sing a broken lullaby please don't cry everything's gonna be alright because momma's here to say goodnight close your eyes close them tight and let the world slip tonight please don't bleed momma's here to sow the seem your not perfect and neither is me. but hush now child now don't you cry don't you slit your wrist tonight don't let the blood fall down to the floor because momma's here to sing the broken lullaby.

I sit in class My mind a blank nothing to do nothing to see. It's like arms covering my eyes and hands chocking me everything is different. I don't really belong I'm not smart or pretty. Just pretty damn dumb they smile, I grin but they don't really care. It's like voices but there high and undefined. I can't tell what there saying or what it means I just know I'm pretty far behind. They laugh and point I try to laugh along I just want to fit in I want a friend I want someone to stand by me To help me kill this monster It hurts they have there groups but i sit alone trying to be brave Just...Just trying to fit in. To

Music blares threw the walls to hide what i am doing. so no one would worry . so no one will be sad . when they see me gone. Please don't open the door. I don't want you to see the Pain that i live everyday. I'm to lost to be fixed to broken to be helped to lost to be found. I'm Sorry, let the music close on me the pounding of the songs wont save me its time for me to close my eyes. and let the music bring me safety from the worlds cruel words. when i'm found nothing will be left i wont be found on newspapers i'll just be the girl who just left no sign, that she was even here.

Sing me a sweet little song Don't stop not in till morning break little girl you're strong everyone else around is a fake See just look around Let the song break out the beat of the sound just stand up and SHOUT!! so just sing a little song let the music flow because you are strong let everyone sit back and watch the show Don't let the song go out help start a new sound jump up on Desks, Chairs, Benches, anything and just SHOUT!!! Let the music come out the blaring on the walls pounding in your ears there aren't any flaws and everyone around us  disappears.

Have you ever stared into the eyes of madness? I have, my own eyes stared back, Hoping it was sanity that i lack, How wrong i was, I was breaking my own laws! Those eyes held insanity Covering my own Vanity This was Fucking Inhumanity! Dear god someone help. My own subconscious yelps, What is Insanity? Its a breakdown of Humanity, The killing of your sanity Hiding your vanity this isn't insanity! this is Madness! coated with sadness Dear lord this is MADNESS!!

i remember when i used to smile and it wasn't forced. I remember when i didn't cry because i miss you. I remember when we used to be a family not broken and divided. My father how could you. Walk away like we weren't in your life before how could you laugh at my pain. Daddy i was your little girl not a door mat you use now. You look at me with  anger and disgust. I held my head up for so long I'm falling while you laugh along. I'm Alone I'm falling Your laughing Your screaming out Daddy what am i to you am i your daughter or just a play toy Daddy what happened to make you hate me is it because i never smiled is it because im bro